Sadness Here?

When things started shutting down, I was sad for the lunches and dinners and friends I would not get to see. I was sort of at wit's end for two weeks when I thought about where I could not go. In actuality, I was only bummed out at the time an event would happen and not on other days or times.

Then, that all went away. It vanished. I have not grieved for anything I have missed or lost. And, thankfully, I know of no one personally who has died of Covid19.

I am not suffering like some bloggers are. I am not missing things like people everywhere are missing things.

At the same time I am very concerned for the fate of other's lives, my life, my children's and grandchildren's, and Tommy's, and the fate of our country with our President's decisions. The deaths in our country, the old and young who die are sad and make me sad.

But, I am not climbing the walls and suffering for contact with others. I just made up my mind it is the way it is and I cannot make it more than it is--temporary disruption. And, I know nothing will ever be the same. EVER. We will change, too.

I am not sad, depressed, or antsy.